Epilogue

A new blog and also a new template. A nice clean slate for me to paint it anyway I want and what I want to paint is a picture of a sunset. To me a sunset doesn't just mean that the night time is here but a sunset must happen for there to be another sunrise. This is the same way that we are all suppose to view our life. We had to first bid farewell to sunset before we welcome the next sunrise. And that's how I view it.

Recently knew that a special girl in my heart had found the special guy for her life. She's doing pretty fine and from what I heard, it would be a lasting relationship. Still, I would hope that she would tell me herself but I guess she wouldn't want to hurt me, that's why I found it through a third party. The time for feeling pain and hurt has already passed. It's been such a long time that I had felt pain and hurt but right now, I feel happy for her. I always believed if you love a person, you must also be happy for her, even if the person she spent her time with wouldn't be me. Nah, not that I still love her deeply but there's still some of it left in my heart.

Sometimes would really look back and think how things could have happened differently. What if both of us were left alone, what if there were no interfering people, what if people were helping instead of potraying me in a negative manner...would I had been given a chance. Sometimes would reflect back on myself and asked was it really the others the cause of what had happened... or was it really myself which had shaped the present. Sometimes would want to know whether what I did for her mattered or not. Does she feel touched? Does she feel impressed? Does she feel special? Does she feel happy? Is there anymore I could have done. Guess it doesn't matter anymore.